I'M OK

Honestly,
I have had self-confidence issues.
Serious ones.
In the past.
But through a lot of stuff,
stuff that happened,
I am now really confident.
In myself,
and the way I am.

More exams next week.
I'm not too stressed.
I know I can do them.
I think I can pass them all.
So I'll try not to worry much.

I spent a lot of time,
this weekend,
discussing my future with myself.
I'm satisfied with what I know,
and what I don't,
and all the possibilities.

POSTED 08/05/2011

THE GIVING SPREE

I wish we could hang out.
You seem like someone I could do that with.

Can I just...
Raise my eyes??
And ask for that to happen?
I don't think branches drop wishes.

Trees are just empty shell without silver soul.
So it can't help me with you.

I mean...
Only God can??
Right??
That's what I believe.

But He doesn't just hand out gifts.
Like the tree dropping apples.

This I know...
Don't I??
From experience??
Because He is righteous.

And God is simply love.
He'll show me you when time is right.

So then...
Will I pray??
Raise my eyes??
My hope is in Him.

POSTED 06/05/2011

AND THEN SOME

Now I can breathe a little more.
I just did another exam.
Passed it I think!

Had good food today.
Came up with really random thoughts too.

Mused quite a bit!
About life, and love, and why.
And realized that everything is sorted.
I can't change anything.
And things come as they will.

POSTED 05/05/2011

ONCE AGAIN

I relaxed today.
I won't be tomorrow.
I will be stressed.
So I relaxed today.

I thought a lot.
About life.
Summer, music, and you.
So I thought a lot.

I spent money.
A t-shirt was bought.
A present to myself.
So I spent money.

I missed you.
Not that you realize.
But I do that.
So I missed you.

I wrote this.
A poem of feelings.
As I can't express them.
So I wrote this.

POSTED 04/05/2011

I KNOW WHY THE CAGED BIRD SINGS

Another day, another blog post.
Smitten is a word.
How awesome.

Today, I got a lot of work done.
I discovered how intrinsicly all ideas are linked.
i.e. no idea is original.
everything is derived from something else.
This is not necessarily a bad thing.
I drank Chinese tea,
and Christmas coffee.
I realized the beauty of friends.
I rocked out.
I played music.

My brain is slowly being cleared of thoughts,
other than those of looming exams.
But in a good way.
I can now focus.

Did it hurt?
When you fell from heaven?

Goldfish are awesomely useless.
While cats rock.

POSTED 30/04/2011